Day 362 – A Shovel and Some Flowers
Zencast 359 – Wise Speech My niece named her Chloe and I watched her die. I’d like to think it was the Tonglen Practice the finally allowed her to move on, but it was still painful, full of suffering and blood. Her cries seemed to get louder when I left the room to check the … Read more
Day 361 – Wish I knew what to do.
Zencast 358 – Three Ways of Understanding The Path I’m sitting here, but I’m not alone for a change. Chloe is with me. She’s lying, half awake, half asleep, with blood dripping from her bottom. We though we’d lost her this afternoon when my sister-in-law couldn’t find her in the backyard, but when we got … Read more
Day 360 – Restraint
Zencast 357 – Walking Meditation I’m definitely holding back right now. I won’t let myself get too happy. I try not to let myself get too sad. I’m figuring out how to maneuver through this new space in which I have no job and nothing yet on the horizon. I’m counting my pennies, wondering how … Read more
Day 359 – Just Nothing
Zencast 356 – The Perfume of Dharma For the first time on this year-long journey I have nothing to say. Nothing to share. Nothing to remark on. Nothing that I haven’t already explained, complained or exalted on these pages. I can’t even listen to the Zencast for inspiration. I tried, but Jack Kornfield’s voice fluttered … Read more
