Day 349 – I’m Empty
Tonight I’m empty of answers. Empty of excuses. Empty of reasoning and understanding. Empty of stories, and almost even of questions.
There comes a time when you simply have to accept and let go.
During these times I take solace in a growing list of quotes that remind me I’m not alone in my personal turmoil.
Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best. – Unknown
Sometimes when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling into place. – Unknown
Funny thing is that even as I write this I feel like a fool because things are falling into place so wonderfully that I can hardly believe the blessings in my life.
It’s duality at its best. My internal world may need a good hug, but my external world is full of joy and wonder. However, I guess what this really proves is that my heart is truly full of joy and wonder, it’s just my thoughts that are making me think otherwise.
Oh ego, you know just how to fool me every time!
If you need a bit of encouragement along the path, check out this documentary I watched today after becoming a sustaining member on Tricycle.com – The Dhamma Brothers.
If these guys can sit everyday and face their worst demons, then I for sure can do it too. I’m also thinking that a 10-day Vipassana retreat is just what the Buddha in me ordered. Ahhh. I’m scared, but I’m ready for it. Now I just have to find one nearby. My ultimate fantasy would be to do a retreat in Redwood City with Gil. Just putting that out into the universe cause you never know what could happen :)
- Minimal: Whiter Shade of Pale (manonmona.wordpress.com)
- The Vipassana Meditation & The Quietest Room in the World (dimpledbrain.com)
- The Skill in Looking at Emptiness as a Mode of Perception Rather Than a Worldview (mettarefuge.wordpress.com)